post-poned

So Dan got a call after we frankly realized we forgot a few questions, or rather a text and asked if we could postpone till 2pm. Then she called when we replied and explained to us that her Dad back in the states was having a heart attack and was driving himself to the ER. We of course said no problem and said 2 is fine, and even if that doesn't work Friday at 11 would be ok.

We offered to pray with her, but she was waiting for a call from the states.

Upon her texting back about not being able to come to the 2 we said no problem and understood. So the new date is this friday at 11. This gives us a little more time to check on a few things that we missed.

The emotions were crazy this morning as I woke up a little frustrated( not sure why, maybe stress)and then came back to reality. We were somewhat relieved that she didn't come today, but also we wanted to get thru this. After we found out that she wasn't coming today, I became dizzy, (I think all the drama) and took a nap. My tummy is making crazy noises because of nerves I think. Yikes, what is happening... Beside that I do really feel at peace, although it doesn't sound like it.

So we wait again, looking forward to my coupon party on thursday night so I can get my mind off Friday for a bit!!!

Thanks for listening... wow this really does help blogging and getting it out of my mind and on to the vast land of the internet!

Ciao!

random feverish thoughts the day before

so, tomorrow is the first appointment of many I think. Our social worker is coming at 11 am, and we are feverishly working on finishing those last minute things. Mainly the third bedroom making it look more appealing like a bed room and not a giant craft center. Some friends of ours gave us a nice cabinet to put in the room, and I can almost visualize have little floral fabric, and baskets resembling a little girls room. In fact, I was online last night looking at bedding and little girls room decor. Oh this is fun!!!

We went over most of our paperwork and have most of it done, some things we need more info on and it doesn't look like its going to happen. Previously I had emailed the social worker and asked what we in deed need for today. She said there is three months from when she comes to get the stuff done. This gives us a little relief as tonight we have our middle school summer kick off event, and wednesday we have our high school summer kick-off event. At least tomorrow afternoon and eve we don't have anything planned, so we can curl up and watch a good movie, and debrief all of life... Sounds fun right....

I have been invisioning having little ones running around the house, and picturing what our day will transition too... I am even looking into which home school material to get. But this all in looking not buying as we don't even know the age.

I imagine the difference in our life, and ministry here, and what it will look like. How will be change? It makes me nervous, but also super excited... maybe its the 9 month pregnancy thing happening....

We are also preparing our hearts for the rough times too, the ups and downs of adoption... But what a super ride it will be.

Till the aftermath of tomorrow, please pray!

Your famliy

There is something about digging back through the cobwebs of your mind and unpacking things that have happened in your family, that have shaped you. One of the questions we are unpacking is tell me about your childhood, and your family. What was your role, and how did your parents discipline. This is super good to go thru but also enlightening making you realize why you are the way you are.

For me, well, I have been through a lot of junk in my life, and am so thankful for God pulling me thru dispite myself. I am amazed at how much I have grown in understanding of who I am.

There is a heart idol that the Lord is continually working on getting rid of in my life. This is a good process but hurts at the same time. Something about being in ministry with people makes you feel like you are in a pressure cooker. This process in and of itself has a way of bringing the impurities out. Oh the pruning.

So, please pray, as we finalize things we need, and look forward to meeting our social worker who is familiar with the Cadence as her kids are a part of Cadence Student ministries in Ramstein area! Thank you Lord for bringing her to understand what we do.

Still paperworking....

Paperwork, paperwork, paperwork

wow! so much paperwork.

I am so grateful that Dan and I have discuss'd role and responsibilities within the marriage and house. This is a fluid thing depending on our life stage, but I am super glad if nothing else it makes it easier to fill all this paperwork out. Questions like: How do you make descions as a couple, whats your communcation styles, conflict styles... (thanks Cadence for helping us in discovering so much about ourselves)

The first thing is a 13 page essay type thing, and then about 50 more pages of info. Yikes!!!

I know it will be worth it, and its a small sacrifice we can pay to welcome our child (hope) into our lives!

That being said, we feel like we are in that 9 month phase of having a child, with all the wonders, fears, thoughts... What is amazing is that they always come back to the Lord. The Lord is in charge and has the right child (children) for us out there somewhere and we are confident in His leading.

Meanwhile, I am compiling all the info, investigating homeschool choices... (that in and of it self is overwhelming... )

carving down

Well, we have a new direction per/ say. We were thinking of going with Bethany Christian services for the adoption and then Adopt Abroad for the home study, but alas the Lord has given us answers as to who we should go with.

Our home study is set for June, and its been said it could be 2 weeks to 2 years. What a huge gap, but we know that the Lord will bring us our children at His time. Yep- you got it- I said children as we are opening our home to siblings. We are hoping that our social worker approves us having 2 kids, but that is still up in the air till june.

The Lord is carving down desires and narrowing the focus. I am a part of a website that has waiting kids, and I recently received an email about a little girl waiting for a forever family. They are hoping to find a family for her by August otherwise she will be sent back to the orphanage and all the progress she has made would be for naught. This tugged at my heart, but I know any profile I read will tug at it. I am trusting in the Lord to guide us to the child, children that he has for us.

Thanks for praying and listening!

Agency met, and we are underway

hey there to all the bloggers of the internet.

Saturday we met our agency and it went very well. There has been an email sent to set up appointment for our homestudy. Beth is our social worker, and we met the founder of the agency. We were able to ask lots of questions and find out time lines, real issues that would arise, and just really an honest look at what we are about to dive into. As most of you know thats the type of thing I like, the realness. So I was very happy about hearing the good, amazing, bad and ugly.

They gave the process that we would go through thru the US foster care system. We are excited as Dan and I process'd lots together afterwards and still are.

We don't know what hope haas looks like, or what hope haas' looks like, but we know they are being prayed for, and God is moving in them and around them for our special meeting.

I didn't take photos which usually I do, but I was so excited to hear and see what was going on.

thanks for journeying with us together as this could be a long process or then it could be fast. But please pray for God's timing.

meeting the adgency

Tomorrow is the day that we have waited for since we started praying about adoption. It is a big step meeting the Agency we are going to work with. Please pray as tomorrow we go through seminars and gather countless information items. Pray that we will be clear, and that we will walk in faith with the Lord. I will write afterward as I try to debrief what happened.

Thanks!