I was rereading the thing I read that made me heart broken in the last blog, and when I reread it, I realized I had totally misread it. Maybe I needed to walk through some things I was dealing with, it seems as the Lord is constantly putting before me the idol I so want to be demolished. Praise the Lord that I am recognizing His hand in all this!
I will seek you Lord in all I do!!!
Thank you Lord for loving me in spite of myself. I am forever grateful of your great love and mercy!
Where would my life be without you....
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Part of who I am is always wondering, considering, processing.... I think there are days I think to much on things. I love being in the heart of it with people, but what do you do when people don't want you in the heart of it? I love realness is others, but sometimes (I am guilty) its hard for me to communicate with others who are not real with themselves. Sometimes this leaves me lonely, and right now there are many of my friends who have left and I am mourning the loss of them here. So its time for me to put my self out there again, but its so hard. then I think do people even want to get to know me? I fall in this loop hole in the military context that we are not civilians, not military, but we love each of them, and try to serve them the best way we can.
Lately I have been feeling insecure because I have noticed military spouses only want to share with military spouses, how do I fit in this mix? Who do I spend time with other than the youth?
I pulled back this last year as I was way over committed the year before, and its been hard to build back into the community... But then I think, I know why I am here is to serve the military with everything I am and have. Sometimes that means loving when no one loves you back....
ouch that is hard.....
We are having to do 10 semester hours of training online for adoption. This has been helpful in that it makes us think about lots of things like what our children will experience with new food, sounds, a whole host of things.... The first course we are doing is eyes wide open. ITs a 19 chapter class that has homework at the end of each one.
We also are taking, Adopting the older child, Becoming your child's best advocate, Conspicuous Families, Discipline and the Adopted Child, The Journey of Attachment, Lifebooks, Medical Issues of International Adoption, We're home, now what (parents of newly adopted school age children). There is a ton of info in each, we are only thru one course.
I think these classes would be good for parents of kids that have them naturally. that brings me to a question, do parents of natural born kids go thru training?
I will sign off, as I am wandering around with my thoughts.
I am sitting here drinking the ethiopia coffee we got!! YUM YUM!!
Sunday, July 10, 2011
So here is a wonder-
Do families that have children naturally go through parenting classes?
We are going through parenting classes, and adoption education classes. We started on the Eyes wide open course. First thing to do was draw a picture of the child you want, and pet the picture like you were talking and interacting with the child.... hm...
This was interesting....
Each chapter has homework after the powere point slides that we have to do and send to our social worker....
Its been interesting...
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
I am amazed how the Lord works. In 2007, the Lord brought in our lives 2 families that have forever changed our hearts, and deepen our relationship with the Lord just by knowing them.
Both families have hearts for adoption and missions. Its totally the Lord who has woven our hearts to be united in Him. One of the couples we got to skype with last night, and this totally blessed our hearts. They are in the process of adoption as well and what a blessing to be able to share experiences and struggles. This couple also is providing a website where you can donate to our adoption costs. There will be a meter that will show the progess. We are needing to raise 15,000. If you know anyone who would like to share in the joy of adoption and might be interested in giving toward it, please let me know, or go to the website when its up. We will let you know!
Thanks for listening and journeying with us on this adventure!