Saturday, June 25, 2011

Process is started

So its begun.
She came, and we talked for 4 hours. The first was having things explained to us, and what child we would be interested in adopting, and getting wording right. This was hard, but we had prayed in the morning asking the Lord to reveal to us the direction He wanted us to go. We asked him to use our Social worker to speak to our hearts regarding the decision. HE DID!!!!!

Both Dan and my hearts jumped out (didn't discuss till afterwards) when she mentioned our direction. So with that, we are on our way.

We had too many references but thats ok, and we had all but 4 things done for the paperwork which she was super impressed by. Normally you meet, and then have 3 moths to get the paperwork done. We had it all done. (mostly) So this means when we get the things needed, we then will make the final appointment and in thirty days hopefully the homestudy will be approved (she didn't see anything that was glaring). Then after that we get the copies and go to our agency and then it begins.

In the mean times, we are learning everything we need, educating ourselves, and preparing our hearts for what could be a quick process. It might not, but accepting siblings will make it quicker too. This means it could be as soon at Christmas.


Its super exciting to see God leading and directing....
We will let everyone know where we are being led too soon!

Tuesday, June 21, 2011


So Dan got a call after we frankly realized we forgot a few questions, or rather a text and asked if we could postpone till 2pm. Then she called when we replied and explained to us that her Dad back in the states was having a heart attack and was driving himself to the ER. We of course said no problem and said 2 is fine, and even if that doesn't work Friday at 11 would be ok.
We offered to pray with her, but she was waiting for a call from the states.

Upon her texting back about not being able to come to the 2 we said no problem and understood. So the new date is this friday at 11. This gives us a little more time to check on a few things that we missed.

The emotions were crazy this morning as I woke up a little frustrated( not sure why, maybe stress)and then came back to reality. We were somewhat relieved that she didn't come today, but also we wanted to get thru this. After we found out that she wasn't coming today, I became dizzy, (I think all the drama) and took a nap. My tummy is making crazy noises because of nerves I think. Yikes, what is happening... Beside that I do really feel at peace, although it doesn't sound like it.

So we wait again, looking forward to my coupon party on thursday night so I can get my mind off Friday for a bit!!!

Thanks for listening... wow this really does help blogging and getting it out of my mind and on to the vast land of the internet!


Monday, June 20, 2011

random feverish thoughts the day before

so, tomorrow is the first appointment of many I think. Our social worker is coming at 11 am, and we are feverishly working on finishing those last minute things. Mainly the third bedroom making it look more appealing like a bed room and not a giant craft center. Some friends of ours gave us a nice cabinet to put in the room, and I can almost visualize have little floral fabric, and baskets resembling a little girls room. In fact, I was online last night looking at bedding and little girls room decor. Oh this is fun!!!
We went over most of our paperwork and have most of it done, some things we need more info on and it doesn't look like its going to happen. Previously I had emailed the social worker and asked what we in deed need for today. She said there is three months from when she comes to get the stuff done. This gives us a little relief as tonight we have our middle school summer kick off event, and wednesday we have our high school summer kick-off event. At least tomorrow afternoon and eve we don't have anything planned, so we can curl up and watch a good movie, and debrief all of life... Sounds fun right....

I have been invisioning having little ones running around the house, and picturing what our day will transition too... I am even looking into which home school material to get. But this all in looking not buying as we don't even know the age.

I imagine the difference in our life, and ministry here, and what it will look like. How will be change? It makes me nervous, but also super excited... maybe its the 9 month pregnancy thing happening....

We are also preparing our hearts for the rough times too, the ups and downs of adoption... But what a super ride it will be.

Till the aftermath of tomorrow, please pray!

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Your famliy

There is something about digging back through the cobwebs of your mind and unpacking things that have happened in your family, that have shaped you. One of the questions we are unpacking is tell me about your childhood, and your family. What was your role, and how did your parents discipline. This is super good to go thru but also enlightening making you realize why you are the way you are.
For me, well, I have been through a lot of junk in my life, and am so thankful for God pulling me thru dispite myself. I am amazed at how much I have grown in understanding of who I am.

There is a heart idol that the Lord is continually working on getting rid of in my life. This is a good process but hurts at the same time. Something about being in ministry with people makes you feel like you are in a pressure cooker. This process in and of itself has a way of bringing the impurities out. Oh the pruning.

So, please pray, as we finalize things we need, and look forward to meeting our social worker who is familiar with the Cadence as her kids are a part of Cadence Student ministries in Ramstein area! Thank you Lord for bringing her to understand what we do.

Still paperworking....

Friday, June 10, 2011

Paperwork, paperwork, paperwork

wow! so much paperwork.
I am so grateful that Dan and I have discuss'd role and responsibilities within the marriage and house. This is a fluid thing depending on our life stage, but I am super glad if nothing else it makes it easier to fill all this paperwork out. Questions like: How do you make descions as a couple, whats your communcation styles, conflict styles... (thanks Cadence for helping us in discovering so much about ourselves)

The first thing is a 13 page essay type thing, and then about 50 more pages of info. Yikes!!!
I know it will be worth it, and its a small sacrifice we can pay to welcome our child (hope) into our lives!

That being said, we feel like we are in that 9 month phase of having a child, with all the wonders, fears, thoughts... What is amazing is that they always come back to the Lord. The Lord is in charge and has the right child (children) for us out there somewhere and we are confident in His leading.

Meanwhile, I am compiling all the info, investigating homeschool choices... (that in and of it self is overwhelming... )